إليك أنت

إليك أكتب

.......

أكتب احترامي في سطور من ذهب

لانك احتويت المرأة والطفلة التي بداخلي

و منحتها الحرية والتفاهم و الصداقة و الصرامة

وتغلبت علي تعقيداتها و تقلباتها و نزواتها..

أكتب إليك كلمات عشق

كلمات غرام

كلمات ينبضها قلبي

وتهمسها عيناي

و ترتجف بها يداي عندما نتلامس ..

وإليك أرسم

.......

أرسم بيوتاً و أشجاراً و طيوراً

أرسم وروداً و أطفالً و عجائز

أرسم رياحً و برقً و رعداً

أرسم سكون حبي و ثورته

أرسم مستقبلي و حاضري

أرسم عينيك وأري فيهما عمري القادم

أري فيهما مملكتي و مليكي

أري دموعي و أفراحي و خوفي و طمأنينتي

أراك أنت ..

يا من وهبت لي قلبك

وأعطيتني الأمان

والاحساس ... بأني أنثي ..

إليك انت ...

يا ملهمي

يا معشوقي

يا حبيبي

أكتب ... وأرسم .. و أحلم معك بالحياة

I Will Love You Forever

I love you so deeply,
I love you so much,
I love the sound of your voice
And the way you laugh.
I love your warm smile
and your kind, thoughtful way,
the joy that you bring
to my life every day.
I love you today
as I have from the start,
and I'll love you forever
with all of my heart

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away;
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you,
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with every touch of your heart,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
just know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever and Always,
I will Love You."

I Love You

Don't care what we wear

Don't care what we do

Don't care where we go

Just as long as it's with you...

Being In Love Is A Bless =)

When all you think of is Him

When you wake up at night just to check if he's okay or not

When you worry , even when there's no reason to worry about

When you feel that you love him so much that it brings tears to your eyes

When Every little things he does , mean the world to you

When he calls late at night just to tell you that he loves you

When he screams in your face because he's been worried for hours and your mobile is SILENT or switched off and he cant reach you

When he takes you see something and u like it and he'd surprise you when you find it on your desk at work the next morning

When he looks in your eyes , smiles , and whispers i love you .. just then .. you'd realized that you are blessed :)

Grasping ..

I always get this feeling that someday am gonna win this BIG lottery ( and btw i do not participate in such crap ) and am gonna make everyone around me happy by making all their wishes come true ..

i know its kinda stupid but what am talking about is not the lottery thingy .. am talking about how .i feel sympathy and love for each and every single thing or someone i meet in my life

Am always like " GOD if only i have this magical stick where i can FLICK with it on everything and make this whole world a better place for every single being on earth "

I Know its " too much " to even think of dreaming to do such a thing ... But my problem is that i always dream of !things that i can not have or can not do

Having Fun !!! WTF :S

There Is That Sentence That I Truely Hate !

It Usually Goes Like .. "Its Summer Tiiiiiiimee .. Let's Have Fun "

How come you're gonna have fun when the weather is so freaking hot and everyone around you is nervous because of the hot weather and actually you are unable to enjoy the sun because it tooooo warm that it might burn your skin ..!

Maybe yeah people can use this sentence and feel good about it BUT certainly NOT .. HERE .. in the middle east .. because i do wish if winter would come soon :(

وهــــــم

عندما تلتقي بشخص ما

ثم تدور احلامك حوله

وتبدأ بسرد أحداث

و التعايش في مواقف كثيرة ليست لها وجود

فهو ... وهــــــم

عندما أحبك

و أرتمي بأحضانك في فترة ألمي و فرحي

مثل الطفلة الصغيرة التي تبحث عن الأمان

و أستيقظ لأجد أنك غير موجود في غرفتي .. في حديقتي ... في عملي ...

فهو ... وهــــــم

عندما تمطر السماء

وأركض لحجرتي

وأجلب الوردة الصفراء

الذابلة

فأنا احتفظ بها منذ أن أعطيتها لي

وأضعها تحت الأمطار

لترتوي

حتي تحيا مرة أخري

لعل يحيا حبي في قلبك من جديد ...

فهذا هو ... وهــــــم

عندما أخرج للطرقات

أستنشق هوائها

أري همومي و سعادتي في عيون المارين من حولي

و أراك أيضاً في عيونهم

تداعبني بنظراتك

تهمس لي بأعذب كلمات الحب

تمد يدك وتناديني حتي أرحل معك إلي عالمك الخاص

ثم أجد نفسي وحيدة

و يدي ممدودة

و لكنك غير موجود

فهو ... وهــــــم

Nothing

There comes those times when u have this big big scream inside ur heart and u just cant let it out ..

.

u feel like the whole world is falling around u and u just can't do anything about it ...

u don't know why or how this is happening ..

all u can do is NOTHING ..

.

Nothing can erase this pain

Nothing can make things the way they used to be

Nothing to be done

Nothing to be said

and all whats left after all is this pain inside of u

and in the end it means NOTHING to others how much pain u r feeling ..

.

isn't this world is just worth NOTHING !!!

Just illusions ...

I've been living in this BIG Illusion of mine ...

i don't know if its an illusion or reality or whatever

everything just ends the same way anyways ...

.

It's just that u feel like all the roads are leading u to the same place ..

and that place is the worst place on earth and u actually have to be in it cuz its ur distney..

.

those illusion that we live in not knowing that they just don't exist

those dreams that come out of no where and fill ur life with hopes and wishes and then fades away leaving u with NOTHING in the end ,,

.

this light that u follow and it takes u in the middle of the darkest places on earth and then the light is gone and all whats left is total darkness in an unknown place ... u don't know ur way back , u can't see ur way forward ... u r stuck in this for God knows how long .. and u actually have to accept it as well ... !

.

why do illusions exist ?

why do we have to face this in our life...

why do we have to be killed and still live and breathe as if nothing happened ..

why does it always an illusion for me ?

why don't i learn from my mistakes even once and just wake up and stop living in these illusions ...

why do i miss living in that illusion when it was over , though it tortured me ?

.....

why !!!

Crazyyyyyy

yesterday i was searching for some old books i had and i found out that actually none of them is interesting :S

did i change that much ?

i used to love loads of things and now i don't

my mind is shrinking

my thoughts are getting narrow more and more everyday

i only concentrate in a field or maybe 2 and where is everything else i ever wanted

did i change that much ?

will i ever be who i used to be before ?

wil i ever have my smile back again ?

did i go crazy or is it just life ?

To You ( You Who U R )

There was that day when u meant the world to me ...

when ur smile shined my life

when ur touch was everything i wished for

..

There was a day when i was ur only dream

ur only companion

ur home

ur girl

..

There was a time when we spent hours

long hours just whispering "i love u "

..

we dreamed

we cried

we kissed

we smiled

..

u laughed

i laughed

u loved me

i hurted u

u forgave me

u held me close

u gave me hope

u gave me life ...

..

u changed me ..

..

and then

u left me ...

..

was it my fault ?

was it urs ?

is it this unfair life ?

..

r u hurted ?

do u think of me before u sleep ?

do u stil want me ?

..

can u feel me ?

..

would u fall for someone else ?

would she make u happy ?

will she take care of u ?

..

will she cook u ur favourite meal ?

will she bear ur children ?

..

what will u name ur little girl ?

will u ever remember me when u see her smile ?

..

and if u never met someone else

will i have a chance to be with u oneday ?

..

would u hold me for one last time before u go?

would u forgive me if i ever hurted you ?

will u remember me ?

remember us ?

..

would u .....

..

oh if u only knew how much i miss u ....

إحــتـمـال

إحتمال الاحتمالات ...

أيوة احتمال الاحتمالات ...
انك تكون فاكر ان دي حاجه و احتمال تطلع حاجه تانيه و في الاخر احتمالاتك تطلع غلط فا تتحمل الاحتمالات دي لانها بتيجي علي دماغك في الاخر ..

ليه كل حاجه مبقيناش واثقين منها
تسأل علي حاجه .. اي حاجه .. و الرد دايما يكون " احتمال تحصل او لا "
تحب .. تخلص لحبك .. بس هاتفضلوا مع بعض ... " احتمال "
تتعب في شغلك .. تسهر و تفكر و تجرب الف فكرة و فكرة .. بس هاتنجح فيه .. " احتمال "
زي ما تكون حياتك مجرد احتمالات ... مفيش حاجه واثق فيها
هل انت صح في تفكيرك .. " احتمال "
يا تري بيحبني و لا مش بيحبني " احتمال "
يا تري هاييجي بكرة و الاقي الحلم ده لسه موجود في حياتي " احتمال "

يا تري هاقدر اكمل حياتي بكل اللي فيها من حلو و مر " احتمال "

كل شيء في حياتنا بيبقي في احتمالين .. احتمال انت عاوزة يتحقق و احتمال بيتحقق غصب عنك ... في الاخر لازم تتحمل نتيجه احتمالاتك .. علشان مفيش حد بيشيل عن حد حاجه في الزمن ده ..

يا تري حد فهم حاجه اصلا من كلامي .... برضو " احتمال " :)

يا تري ممكن تيجي حاجه واحده .. بس واحده .. و ابقي واثقه ان هي هاتحصل او ان هي صح من غير ما اقول لنفسي " احتمال " .... احتمال :)